If this were about attention, then I would reveal my identity. I would let people who know me know about the blog. Or I would do something so that people could communicate with me. I just need to talk at a wall–but a wall with ears.
And I’m hardly suicidal or anything. I don’t want to get to that point. And that means maintaining my mental health. And that means having a safe space to share my heart. And if I can’t do that with the people in my life (except the ones my insurance pays for), then I have to create a space for myself.